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We Walk in the Dream.
Ok, no music. New Buffy, new Smallville, it's all good.
Work itself has been okay the last couple of days. See, it's a simple plan. Keep busy, which means no thinking, which means no self-reflection, which means no Sad Kyle. Not that Sad Kyle gets comforted a lot, but still, it's hell on this end.
I've been recovering from the wedding. I mean, it was a great wedding, but it also means the weekend went by really quickly. I have a plan for this Saturday morning, and I need to keep doing things this week to make sure it happens. I'll be okay.
And, I've been dreaming again. I sleep, I dream, and I wake up with a stillness inside. And not the good calm, kind. This is more the 'Oh God, what just happened' type. But, I lack most of a memory of what I dream about, which adds to that same unsettled feeling.
In one, I remember kissing someone who, about...eight years ago now, put me through almost a year of psychological abuse. I remember liking it a lot, too. This, I admit, bothers me on a lot of levels I have left untouched for a very long time. Why that person? Why now?
In the waking world, I was spposed to see Spider-Man with Rod this weekend, which I was really looking forward to. I mean, Rod's good company, and it's a movie with Tobey. Me happy young man. But, I found out Little John scheduled his D&D game for this Saturday last month, and I forgot. As did Rod. Damn.
Besides, I'm looking forward to the game. it's at my friend's store, which means I can talk to Christine, ask if she's seen Michael around, and ask her an important question.
"Christine. How much is it worth to you to try and play Matchmaker for me?"
To be continued...
Lucky me.
Work itself has been okay the last couple of days. See, it's a simple plan. Keep busy, which means no thinking, which means no self-reflection, which means no Sad Kyle. Not that Sad Kyle gets comforted a lot, but still, it's hell on this end.
I've been recovering from the wedding. I mean, it was a great wedding, but it also means the weekend went by really quickly. I have a plan for this Saturday morning, and I need to keep doing things this week to make sure it happens. I'll be okay.
And, I've been dreaming again. I sleep, I dream, and I wake up with a stillness inside. And not the good calm, kind. This is more the 'Oh God, what just happened' type. But, I lack most of a memory of what I dream about, which adds to that same unsettled feeling.
In one, I remember kissing someone who, about...eight years ago now, put me through almost a year of psychological abuse. I remember liking it a lot, too. This, I admit, bothers me on a lot of levels I have left untouched for a very long time. Why that person? Why now?
In the waking world, I was spposed to see Spider-Man with Rod this weekend, which I was really looking forward to. I mean, Rod's good company, and it's a movie with Tobey. Me happy young man. But, I found out Little John scheduled his D&D game for this Saturday last month, and I forgot. As did Rod. Damn.
Besides, I'm looking forward to the game. it's at my friend's store, which means I can talk to Christine, ask if she's seen Michael around, and ask her an important question.
"Christine. How much is it worth to you to try and play Matchmaker for me?"
To be continued...
Lucky me.