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Break.
I look at my clock right now and wonder if I could acually manage 12 hours sleep without waking up in the middle of the night and not being tired and screwing up my internal clock for tomorrow.
I gamed last night, which was okay, and I gamed some today with some friends over AIM, but my heart wasn't in it. So, basically, I'm not going RPable tonight. I think I'd want to, but again, my heart isn't in it, if I have one at all.
A lot of what has been bugging me is that some major RP on a MU* is going to be dependent on one person, who recently took a vacation for some undetermined length of time. No idea when they're getting back, and I've been putting near everything on hold because of it. What annoys me is that I was having Fun. But, this seems to be a law with most places I play on: The people I need to be around aren't, and those that I don't want to be around tend to always be the ones...nah, I'll shut up. I got away from that when I left a MU* recently. Four years, and nothing to show for that.
I've been in a funk for days, and it's one of those that I'm having trouble shaking off again. See, there are things I wish would happen to shake it off, but no one pays attention to those. One of those 'that won't make you happy' deals. Heh. Maybe, just maybe, I know my own mind better than you do. Maybe I do know what would make me happy. No one ever thinks of that.
I gamed last night, which was okay, and I gamed some today with some friends over AIM, but my heart wasn't in it. So, basically, I'm not going RPable tonight. I think I'd want to, but again, my heart isn't in it, if I have one at all.
A lot of what has been bugging me is that some major RP on a MU* is going to be dependent on one person, who recently took a vacation for some undetermined length of time. No idea when they're getting back, and I've been putting near everything on hold because of it. What annoys me is that I was having Fun. But, this seems to be a law with most places I play on: The people I need to be around aren't, and those that I don't want to be around tend to always be the ones...nah, I'll shut up. I got away from that when I left a MU* recently. Four years, and nothing to show for that.
I've been in a funk for days, and it's one of those that I'm having trouble shaking off again. See, there are things I wish would happen to shake it off, but no one pays attention to those. One of those 'that won't make you happy' deals. Heh. Maybe, just maybe, I know my own mind better than you do. Maybe I do know what would make me happy. No one ever thinks of that.