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Tuesday. I took a little extra time to poke around Livejournal a bit this morning, searching out things, and finding that I think a lot of the LJs in my area are of people I have no interest in dealing with. :P Figures.
I...am almost half-tempted to start making a list, you know? WHat kind of friends, RL, that I want in my life. If it was college again, it would be easier, I think. It was...easier. Now, making friends became this strange and scary thing for me, and I don't know why that is.
Ok, minor story. At that gaming club thing, a guy showed up a few weeks ago. Cute, funny, and was really into the idea of getting into a game. He said he'd be around a lot, and only showed up the one time and never came back. And, Kyle-no-baka didn't think to get an e-mail or something. It's...a point, down there. People I want to see/talk to, they're never around. People I don't want to deal with RL never leave.
Even now, due to the amount of time I do spend online...it's for a reason. I like the people there. I feel like I'm on a wavelength that I don't have with the people I do hang around, which is frustrating. I don't feel like I match/fit in. See, now if I had the online types in my RL, it would make things tangible for me, I believe. Make it all seem more real or something, I'm not sure.
I...am almost half-tempted to start making a list, you know? WHat kind of friends, RL, that I want in my life. If it was college again, it would be easier, I think. It was...easier. Now, making friends became this strange and scary thing for me, and I don't know why that is.
Ok, minor story. At that gaming club thing, a guy showed up a few weeks ago. Cute, funny, and was really into the idea of getting into a game. He said he'd be around a lot, and only showed up the one time and never came back. And, Kyle-no-baka didn't think to get an e-mail or something. It's...a point, down there. People I want to see/talk to, they're never around. People I don't want to deal with RL never leave.
Even now, due to the amount of time I do spend online...it's for a reason. I like the people there. I feel like I'm on a wavelength that I don't have with the people I do hang around, which is frustrating. I don't feel like I match/fit in. See, now if I had the online types in my RL, it would make things tangible for me, I believe. Make it all seem more real or something, I'm not sure.