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May. 31st, 2002 09:02 amOk, so in the library at work, there's open computers. So, now I can check my e-mail every so often, and I can get some Journal time in if I'm here early enough. My shift doesn't start til 10, actually. Such is life. :)
I won't rant about my job right now, since I don't want to deal with that before I actually hit my desk. No need for the stress. As for tonight, I have more gaming, as usual, a game tomorrow, and that Hero Clix tournament (Sealed Box). At HC, I'm actually pretty good at it, so maybe I have a chance at winning for once. Doubt it, but it'll be fun to try, in any case. I wonder how many people Bob got for it.
Also, something that was on my mind. In RP the other night, my character and their SO said the 'L' word. Excellent scene, as usual, but I was surprised. See, for the last 4 years, I was playing on places with a specific theme where the words "I love you" were ususally followed by the words "But we can't tell anyone or we will be killed." All part of the game system that the MU*s were based on, and only really there to propogate the angst since the reasoning behind the Rules has no real basis in sense. I was wondering this: If I was in such an environment where the In Character aspects of it are violently repressed in some cases, and have been in that mindset for 4+ years, has it affected my overall outlook on the subject of attraction? Someone recently tagged me on this, asking why I was always so ashamed of my feelings, and I've been wondering if the game itself has had that kind of influence. I'm trying to break that cycle, if it does help. So, my character can actually talk about his relationship to his good friends, with no real threat from anyone else yet. It's a good feeling, now that I reflect on it.
Also, I have some people helping me out, especially with RP confidence. I've been invited to multiple places recently, with promises of team membership and the like. I have made some kind of impression, and am working on it presently, to see what happens. Of course, this means I have a few new apps to write, which should keep me busy on Sunday, if nothing else.
Ok, off I go. Still the sleepiest.
I won't rant about my job right now, since I don't want to deal with that before I actually hit my desk. No need for the stress. As for tonight, I have more gaming, as usual, a game tomorrow, and that Hero Clix tournament (Sealed Box). At HC, I'm actually pretty good at it, so maybe I have a chance at winning for once. Doubt it, but it'll be fun to try, in any case. I wonder how many people Bob got for it.
Also, something that was on my mind. In RP the other night, my character and their SO said the 'L' word. Excellent scene, as usual, but I was surprised. See, for the last 4 years, I was playing on places with a specific theme where the words "I love you" were ususally followed by the words "But we can't tell anyone or we will be killed." All part of the game system that the MU*s were based on, and only really there to propogate the angst since the reasoning behind the Rules has no real basis in sense. I was wondering this: If I was in such an environment where the In Character aspects of it are violently repressed in some cases, and have been in that mindset for 4+ years, has it affected my overall outlook on the subject of attraction? Someone recently tagged me on this, asking why I was always so ashamed of my feelings, and I've been wondering if the game itself has had that kind of influence. I'm trying to break that cycle, if it does help. So, my character can actually talk about his relationship to his good friends, with no real threat from anyone else yet. It's a good feeling, now that I reflect on it.
Also, I have some people helping me out, especially with RP confidence. I've been invited to multiple places recently, with promises of team membership and the like. I have made some kind of impression, and am working on it presently, to see what happens. Of course, this means I have a few new apps to write, which should keep me busy on Sunday, if nothing else.
Ok, off I go. Still the sleepiest.