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dewingedAnd of course, I hit my return key at the wrong time.
Adding.
Also, I chipped a tooth last night at gaming. Just from chewing on a fingernail absently. This has happened before, so it means another trip to the dentist. And, since the last one I had got the job done but had the worst bedside manner I've ever seen, I'm looking around for someone else. Good thing my job's health plan has a website with a Doctor Finder tool. Easily done within 2 miles of my home.
But...I'm still tired. Of all of it. Of working, of gaming, of beign gay especially (Pride? I should take pride in something that has caused me nothing but pain for five years? Tell me why. better yet, have the balls and SHOW me.) I'm tired of being me. Being me is essentially pointless. Ever wonder what it's like when you have nothing at all to look forward to?
There's a part of me that wants to say what's on my mind, even if I am in a funk again. I do it to myself, I know. It happens. But, I keep wanting to tell people to just give me what I want. I have that, then I won't complain any more, I won't burden people with being around me. I'll shut up.
I promise...
Adding.
Also, I chipped a tooth last night at gaming. Just from chewing on a fingernail absently. This has happened before, so it means another trip to the dentist. And, since the last one I had got the job done but had the worst bedside manner I've ever seen, I'm looking around for someone else. Good thing my job's health plan has a website with a Doctor Finder tool. Easily done within 2 miles of my home.
But...I'm still tired. Of all of it. Of working, of gaming, of beign gay especially (Pride? I should take pride in something that has caused me nothing but pain for five years? Tell me why. better yet, have the balls and SHOW me.) I'm tired of being me. Being me is essentially pointless. Ever wonder what it's like when you have nothing at all to look forward to?
There's a part of me that wants to say what's on my mind, even if I am in a funk again. I do it to myself, I know. It happens. But, I keep wanting to tell people to just give me what I want. I have that, then I won't complain any more, I won't burden people with being around me. I'll shut up.
I promise...