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dewingedOk, I've been having a few things on my mind the last few days. One, working with my sister on the insurance papers, so I can get those sent out and I can get the money to work with for the new car. I have enough that I can put a down payment if I have to Saturday, but the money I'm getting will cover a lot of costs.
Mom was having palpatations last night, and wanted me to take her to the hospital. But, she then decides to call my sister in, then decided they stopped and she was't going. She had them again today, and they gave her a tranquilizer, so she's been sleeping most of the night while we take care of grandma, who can't get up out of her chair without help. And, Mom hurt her arm trying to help her the other day, so they call me in every 20 minutes or so. Dad's on the late shift now, so isn't home til late.
No real calls, nothing much going on. Been doing some RP, and it's been okay. Been trying to busy myself in it the last few days, and not really succeeding a lot of the time. Like...I want to surpress my personality for a while so I don't have to think.
I've been feeling even more innocent and clueless lately, and...naive and young and stupid, and dorky and geeky and a child, and...all the stuff I begged God for a long time not to make me be. I will never catch up. That hurts me more than I can put into actual words.
I hate that part of me.
I can work with the things I can fix. One, I don't know how to do those 'cutoff' LJ posts, so I can have the one line linked to the whole entry. Also, wish I had webspace, so I cold set up a list of online comic links, so I'd have some easier way to read my daily comics, add a few more back to the list, and not have to go all over the net for them.
Can't fix anything.
Mom was having palpatations last night, and wanted me to take her to the hospital. But, she then decides to call my sister in, then decided they stopped and she was't going. She had them again today, and they gave her a tranquilizer, so she's been sleeping most of the night while we take care of grandma, who can't get up out of her chair without help. And, Mom hurt her arm trying to help her the other day, so they call me in every 20 minutes or so. Dad's on the late shift now, so isn't home til late.
No real calls, nothing much going on. Been doing some RP, and it's been okay. Been trying to busy myself in it the last few days, and not really succeeding a lot of the time. Like...I want to surpress my personality for a while so I don't have to think.
I've been feeling even more innocent and clueless lately, and...naive and young and stupid, and dorky and geeky and a child, and...all the stuff I begged God for a long time not to make me be. I will never catch up. That hurts me more than I can put into actual words.
I hate that part of me.
I can work with the things I can fix. One, I don't know how to do those 'cutoff' LJ posts, so I can have the one line linked to the whole entry. Also, wish I had webspace, so I cold set up a list of online comic links, so I'd have some easier way to read my daily comics, add a few more back to the list, and not have to go all over the net for them.
Can't fix anything.