Cage.

Ok, I've been having a few things on my mind the last few days. One, working with my sister on the insurance papers, so I can get those sent out and I can get the money to work with for the new car. I have enough that I can put a down payment if I have to Saturday, but the money I'm getting will cover a lot of costs.

Mom was having palpatations last night, and wanted me to take her to the hospital. But, she then decides to call my sister in, then decided they stopped and she was't going. She had them again today, and they gave her a tranquilizer, so she's been sleeping most of the night while we take care of grandma, who can't get up out of her chair without help. And, Mom hurt her arm trying to help her the other day, so they call me in every 20 minutes or so. Dad's on the late shift now, so isn't home til late.

No real calls, nothing much going on. Been doing some RP, and it's been okay. Been trying to busy myself in it the last few days, and not really succeeding a lot of the time. Like...I want to surpress my personality for a while so I don't have to think.

I've been feeling even more innocent and clueless lately, and...naive and young and stupid, and dorky and geeky and a child, and...all the stuff I begged God for a long time not to make me be. I will never catch up. That hurts me more than I can put into actual words.

I hate that part of me.

I can work with the things I can fix. One, I don't know how to do those 'cutoff' LJ posts, so I can have the one line linked to the whole entry. Also, wish I had webspace, so I cold set up a list of online comic links, so I'd have some easier way to read my daily comics, add a few more back to the list, and not have to go all over the net for them.

Can't fix anything.

Balance spree.

Ok, talked to my sister first today. Her and I are going to go over my insurance stuff tonight after she gets my niece home from cheerleading practice. After that, I called my brother. And...well, looks like we're going car shopping tonight. I have the money for the down payment, and what I get from the insurance company should cover what I'm taking from my savings, with some extra (Some? Try a lot, for me). So, enw car, no loaner/rental in gold that makes me feel like a pimp when I drive it, and mmm, new car. :)

So, Gawd only knows when I'll be online tonight. Maybe later, maybe not much at all, depending on when I get done.

But, finally cornered my job's IT guy just now, and told him the public comps in the library here have had no net access since Tuesday afternoon. They came, they saw, and bless their hearts, they fixed. :) This is why you get an entry from me now. Ah! So happy! :)

I'll hand out details tonight on the car, if I can. :)