Preparation.

Ok, not going to talk much right now, but I am in a very reflective mood right now. I might deal with it tomorrow before work in another post.

Rarr!

This is for the Gamer Purity Test. See my friends page for the link. :)

You scored 379 out of a possible 490.
That's 77.35% for you math-geek types. Congratulations!


0-10%: Level Zero- you have no experience points and probably no gaming group
11-25%: Acolyte- now you've reached level 8- it's time to learn some real magick
26-55%: Veteran- you've played more than your share of systems
56-70%: Games Master- Lord of the Game, we salute you
71-80%: Munchkin- give me a portable hole full of beer and a major land-war
81-90%: Game Designer- be my friend, no-one else will
91-100%: Gary Gygax- we've worshipped you and burned you in effigy. You also cheated on this test


Note: Will post on reflective mood later.

Reflection.

I've been going through emotions lately, but there's an odd sensation mixed in with it all the same. I don't have a lot of the things I really want in my life right now, like a relationship or life experience to speak of overall, but there's still a sense of peace about it. It's not ripping at my insides as much, and when my mind does wander in that direction, the emotions I usually feel in regards to it aren't as powerful/overwhelming as usual. There's a feeling of 'But it's okay' attached to all of it, and I really don't know where it's coming from. I'm not sure how I should feel about this, but I find myself scared that I'm going to end up putting my needs into some sort of denial state, where I never bring them up or even acknowledge them. Even if that's what people want me to do...

*sigh*


Though, lately I find myself chipper about one thing, in the fact that I made a new friend online recently, on one of the places I play on. It was one of those circumstances where we knew each other a little (Mostly via mutual friends) beforehand, reconnected over the holiday weekend, and just got to talking out of character. A few days later, we talk to each other like we've always known each other. Both of us mentioned this in conversation, and found it cool.

And, yesterday, I found myself thinking about it again. You know, wondering why people 'click' so easily sometimes, and how friendships develop and such, when I had a thought that made it make sense for me.

The thought: Kyle, stop analyzing it. It happens. Just enjoy it and be happy for the mutual acceptance, since it's only going to increase the joy of everyone involved.

Simple, neh? ;)

Now, I'm not mentioning names, since I don't wish to embarass the person involved. But I find myself and my life a little richer now that they're in it.

But I'm sure they're reading this. And if so, I raise my can of Sprite to you (Sprite? Well, I am on lunch here...)

*clank* To new friends. Maybe they be as close as the old friends.

Thank you.