Reflection.
Sep. 5th, 2002 03:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dewingedI've been going through emotions lately, but there's an odd sensation mixed in with it all the same. I don't have a lot of the things I really want in my life right now, like a relationship or life experience to speak of overall, but there's still a sense of peace about it. It's not ripping at my insides as much, and when my mind does wander in that direction, the emotions I usually feel in regards to it aren't as powerful/overwhelming as usual. There's a feeling of 'But it's okay' attached to all of it, and I really don't know where it's coming from. I'm not sure how I should feel about this, but I find myself scared that I'm going to end up putting my needs into some sort of denial state, where I never bring them up or even acknowledge them. Even if that's what people want me to do...
*sigh*
Though, lately I find myself chipper about one thing, in the fact that I made a new friend online recently, on one of the places I play on. It was one of those circumstances where we knew each other a little (Mostly via mutual friends) beforehand, reconnected over the holiday weekend, and just got to talking out of character. A few days later, we talk to each other like we've always known each other. Both of us mentioned this in conversation, and found it cool.
And, yesterday, I found myself thinking about it again. You know, wondering why people 'click' so easily sometimes, and how friendships develop and such, when I had a thought that made it make sense for me.
The thought: Kyle, stop analyzing it. It happens. Just enjoy it and be happy for the mutual acceptance, since it's only going to increase the joy of everyone involved.
Simple, neh? ;)
Now, I'm not mentioning names, since I don't wish to embarass the person involved. But I find myself and my life a little richer now that they're in it.
But I'm sure they're reading this. And if so, I raise my can of Sprite to you (Sprite? Well, I am on lunch here...)
*clank* To new friends. Maybe they be as close as the old friends.
Thank you.
*sigh*
Though, lately I find myself chipper about one thing, in the fact that I made a new friend online recently, on one of the places I play on. It was one of those circumstances where we knew each other a little (Mostly via mutual friends) beforehand, reconnected over the holiday weekend, and just got to talking out of character. A few days later, we talk to each other like we've always known each other. Both of us mentioned this in conversation, and found it cool.
And, yesterday, I found myself thinking about it again. You know, wondering why people 'click' so easily sometimes, and how friendships develop and such, when I had a thought that made it make sense for me.
The thought: Kyle, stop analyzing it. It happens. Just enjoy it and be happy for the mutual acceptance, since it's only going to increase the joy of everyone involved.
Simple, neh? ;)
Now, I'm not mentioning names, since I don't wish to embarass the person involved. But I find myself and my life a little richer now that they're in it.
But I'm sure they're reading this. And if so, I raise my can of Sprite to you (Sprite? Well, I am on lunch here...)
*clank* To new friends. Maybe they be as close as the old friends.
Thank you.