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Jan. 7th, 2003 08:50 amWell, I can work on some of the simpler things, first.
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iceraver, if you're home while you're reading this, shout the following to one of your housemates: Greg! It's only been five days in the Year of Hell, and you've been dropping bombs on your readers every second! You're a sick, twisted, psychotic bastard who delights on tormenting said readers! I love it, you've got an awesome story here. Keep it coming. :)
This Saturday, I have a birthday party. The womanm (Kit) is throwing the party for herself, which she told us a bit over a month ago. She sent out e-Vites, and even had a link for her wish list (www.findgift.com; I might use this one day). I got her a small present of a few miniatures she wanted, despite my misgivings about throwing oneself a party. Of course, I was interested in the party at firstr, before we were informed it was being held at the gaming store, and would involve gaming. I was...disappointed. For one, the store doesn't allow alcohol (for understandable reasons), but...the woman's in her mid 30s, and I really wanted an adult party for once. But, nevertheless, I'm probably going to go all out on a personal level for this, just to prove that I can.
Which brings me to a thought: Any home remedies for dark spots under the eyes?
Also...geez. I've been having a difficult time expressing myself lately. Like, when I really want to say something that's on my mind, or express that I want something, my throat closes up, or my fingers won't touch the keyboard until I figure out something else to say to avoid it. I ask myself why I don't put myself out there, and I can't find any other reason than 'I don't want to go out there alone, which is how it will end up.' I do have a lack of faith/trust in people...but an even bigger lack of trust in myself. And I'm terrified of that aspect, but I have no way to make things better. In some ways, I believe I need the right push, but I'm even afraid to ask for that much from anyone. I don't even know when it got this bad, but I...kinda miss it. I miss talking to people, and not talking around things. Besides work, I barely remember the last time I heard the sound of my own voice, for one.
Ok, work time.
First,
iceraver, if you're home while you're reading this, shout the following to one of your housemates: Greg! It's only been five days in the Year of Hell, and you've been dropping bombs on your readers every second! You're a sick, twisted, psychotic bastard who delights on tormenting said readers! I love it, you've got an awesome story here. Keep it coming. :)This Saturday, I have a birthday party. The womanm (Kit) is throwing the party for herself, which she told us a bit over a month ago. She sent out e-Vites, and even had a link for her wish list (www.findgift.com; I might use this one day). I got her a small present of a few miniatures she wanted, despite my misgivings about throwing oneself a party. Of course, I was interested in the party at firstr, before we were informed it was being held at the gaming store, and would involve gaming. I was...disappointed. For one, the store doesn't allow alcohol (for understandable reasons), but...the woman's in her mid 30s, and I really wanted an adult party for once. But, nevertheless, I'm probably going to go all out on a personal level for this, just to prove that I can.
Which brings me to a thought: Any home remedies for dark spots under the eyes?
Also...geez. I've been having a difficult time expressing myself lately. Like, when I really want to say something that's on my mind, or express that I want something, my throat closes up, or my fingers won't touch the keyboard until I figure out something else to say to avoid it. I ask myself why I don't put myself out there, and I can't find any other reason than 'I don't want to go out there alone, which is how it will end up.' I do have a lack of faith/trust in people...but an even bigger lack of trust in myself. And I'm terrified of that aspect, but I have no way to make things better. In some ways, I believe I need the right push, but I'm even afraid to ask for that much from anyone. I don't even know when it got this bad, but I...kinda miss it. I miss talking to people, and not talking around things. Besides work, I barely remember the last time I heard the sound of my own voice, for one.
Ok, work time.