Things to work on.
Jan. 7th, 2003 08:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dewingedWell, I can work on some of the simpler things, first.
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iceraver, if you're home while you're reading this, shout the following to one of your housemates: Greg! It's only been five days in the Year of Hell, and you've been dropping bombs on your readers every second! You're a sick, twisted, psychotic bastard who delights on tormenting said readers! I love it, you've got an awesome story here. Keep it coming. :)
This Saturday, I have a birthday party. The womanm (Kit) is throwing the party for herself, which she told us a bit over a month ago. She sent out e-Vites, and even had a link for her wish list (www.findgift.com; I might use this one day). I got her a small present of a few miniatures she wanted, despite my misgivings about throwing oneself a party. Of course, I was interested in the party at firstr, before we were informed it was being held at the gaming store, and would involve gaming. I was...disappointed. For one, the store doesn't allow alcohol (for understandable reasons), but...the woman's in her mid 30s, and I really wanted an adult party for once. But, nevertheless, I'm probably going to go all out on a personal level for this, just to prove that I can.
Which brings me to a thought: Any home remedies for dark spots under the eyes?
Also...geez. I've been having a difficult time expressing myself lately. Like, when I really want to say something that's on my mind, or express that I want something, my throat closes up, or my fingers won't touch the keyboard until I figure out something else to say to avoid it. I ask myself why I don't put myself out there, and I can't find any other reason than 'I don't want to go out there alone, which is how it will end up.' I do have a lack of faith/trust in people...but an even bigger lack of trust in myself. And I'm terrified of that aspect, but I have no way to make things better. In some ways, I believe I need the right push, but I'm even afraid to ask for that much from anyone. I don't even know when it got this bad, but I...kinda miss it. I miss talking to people, and not talking around things. Besides work, I barely remember the last time I heard the sound of my own voice, for one.
Ok, work time.
First,
iceraver, if you're home while you're reading this, shout the following to one of your housemates: Greg! It's only been five days in the Year of Hell, and you've been dropping bombs on your readers every second! You're a sick, twisted, psychotic bastard who delights on tormenting said readers! I love it, you've got an awesome story here. Keep it coming. :)This Saturday, I have a birthday party. The womanm (Kit) is throwing the party for herself, which she told us a bit over a month ago. She sent out e-Vites, and even had a link for her wish list (www.findgift.com; I might use this one day). I got her a small present of a few miniatures she wanted, despite my misgivings about throwing oneself a party. Of course, I was interested in the party at firstr, before we were informed it was being held at the gaming store, and would involve gaming. I was...disappointed. For one, the store doesn't allow alcohol (for understandable reasons), but...the woman's in her mid 30s, and I really wanted an adult party for once. But, nevertheless, I'm probably going to go all out on a personal level for this, just to prove that I can.
Which brings me to a thought: Any home remedies for dark spots under the eyes?
Also...geez. I've been having a difficult time expressing myself lately. Like, when I really want to say something that's on my mind, or express that I want something, my throat closes up, or my fingers won't touch the keyboard until I figure out something else to say to avoid it. I ask myself why I don't put myself out there, and I can't find any other reason than 'I don't want to go out there alone, which is how it will end up.' I do have a lack of faith/trust in people...but an even bigger lack of trust in myself. And I'm terrified of that aspect, but I have no way to make things better. In some ways, I believe I need the right push, but I'm even afraid to ask for that much from anyone. I don't even know when it got this bad, but I...kinda miss it. I miss talking to people, and not talking around things. Besides work, I barely remember the last time I heard the sound of my own voice, for one.
Ok, work time.
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Birthday Parties For Oneself
Date: 2003-01-07 07:08 am (UTC)Not, admittedly, that either of us are sending out a wish list. :) I think that one's venturing into a little crass. If you have one, and direct people who want to get gifts, that's one thing. It's something else entirely to send out a wish list with invitations for a party one is throwing for oneself. Gauche.
Ours will, however, be an adult party, as it is being held within the confines of our own place. You're invited, if you want to come down. :) Maybe it'd help in expressing yourself.
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Date: 2003-01-07 02:24 pm (UTC)Heh heh heh
Oh, buddy, am I going to grant that wish. Keep an eye out for February.
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Date: 2003-01-07 09:26 pm (UTC)But yeah, I'll keep reading. Just keep catching me off guard with sick little twists like this, and it's all copacetic.
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Date: 2003-01-07 09:35 pm (UTC)Well...maybe not sick, but perplexing.
That's right, you got to hear it first, on LiveJournal!