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dewingedAs I ponder lunch.
First, I remind myself I need to edit a log to send off to foomf from some creepy-odd RP we had last night. (Hence, why I didn't get to sleep til 3 AM).
A lot about that scene had me thinking. The first was if I'm really up to snuff as a player for the MU* that the scene took place on. Still considering it. Second...it was creepy, but I remember finding myself intrigued/enjoying it. Granted, it could drive my character nuts, and I think the whole plotline is going to screw things up beyond recall, but it's fun.
See, my situation is that in the last six months, I've gone from playing on a place that was almost totally negative. Anything that happened that could screw my characters over there happened. I felt like anything that I did was basically meaningless, or worthless. But, I've gone to a place that's almost frighteningly positive in comparison. Thinks work themselves out, my character...is so far beyond accepted I still look at the screen sometimes and wonder why.
But, I don't think positive all the time is healthy, either? And yeah, that's a question. Not that there's no conflict, but...I find it too easy that something could happen out of nowhere. Too complacent, in some aspect.
So, there's the idea of balance. The good and the bad, and sometimes I wonder if I try ti ignore the bad as much as I can, and I question the healthiness of that.
Ok, must edit log. Must heat some frozen pizza for lunch.
First, I remind myself I need to edit a log to send off to foomf from some creepy-odd RP we had last night. (Hence, why I didn't get to sleep til 3 AM).
A lot about that scene had me thinking. The first was if I'm really up to snuff as a player for the MU* that the scene took place on. Still considering it. Second...it was creepy, but I remember finding myself intrigued/enjoying it. Granted, it could drive my character nuts, and I think the whole plotline is going to screw things up beyond recall, but it's fun.
See, my situation is that in the last six months, I've gone from playing on a place that was almost totally negative. Anything that happened that could screw my characters over there happened. I felt like anything that I did was basically meaningless, or worthless. But, I've gone to a place that's almost frighteningly positive in comparison. Thinks work themselves out, my character...is so far beyond accepted I still look at the screen sometimes and wonder why.
But, I don't think positive all the time is healthy, either? And yeah, that's a question. Not that there's no conflict, but...I find it too easy that something could happen out of nowhere. Too complacent, in some aspect.
So, there's the idea of balance. The good and the bad, and sometimes I wonder if I try ti ignore the bad as much as I can, and I question the healthiness of that.
Ok, must edit log. Must heat some frozen pizza for lunch.
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You should try being on the receiving end of that in RL.
Yes, I have.
No, I'm not giving you any names. If they want to tell you who they are, they will.
If you ever want to read something that will give you nightmares... "When Rabbit Howls".
It's the autobiographies of Trudy Chase.